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Thursday, March 14, 2019

YOU'RE LOOKIN' LIKE A COUNTRY SINGER! -- lyrics




I WALKED ON DOWN TO THE HARDWARE STORE
       JUST THE OTHER DAY
IT'S ONLY HALF A MILE FROM HOME AND I HAD TO
FIX MY PHONE
        IN CASE I HAD SOMETHING TO SAY
AND TO GET SOME KIND OF NIGHT LIGHT SO THE DOGS
       DON'T FUSS AND FIGHT
AND IN THAT VERY BRIGHT LIGHT
        THAT'S WHERE I SAW MY SECOND WIFE

                                                                                                  
SHE SAID: YOU'RE LOOKIN' ROUGH! ROUGH! ROUGH!
         LOOKING LIKE YOU'RE GOING TO DIE
TAKE A LOOK AT YOURSELF, YOU'VE BEEN ON THE SHELF
          AND YOU MADE A BIG MISTAKE THIS TIME;
YOU LOOK HALF DEAD; I HEAR YA THREW OUT MY BED
       ALL MONTH I'VE BEEN TRYING TO RING YA
YOU'RE LOOKIN' DIFFERENT SOMEHOW,
     OH.....NOT THIS NOW!
       YOU'RE LOOKIN' LIKE A COUNTRY SINGER!


I WAS TAKIN' IT KINDA EASY JUST THE OTHER NIGHT
    I WAS DRINKING RYE AND BEER AT THE BAR
         AND TRYING NOT TO START A FIGHT.
THEN I MOVED AND SAT IN THE RED LIGHT- JUST
           BELOW THE EXIT SIGN,
AND THAT WAS WHEN SHE SAW ME, THAT
            THIRD WIFE OF MINE

SHE SAID:.....YOU'RE LOOKING BAD! BAD!  BAD!!
            YOU'RE LOOKING LIKE YOU'RE GONNA DIE
SIT AWAY FROM THE DOOR,BETTER SIT WHERE IT'S WARM
   DONT YOU KNOW IT'S WARM INSIDE?
AND WITH ALL THE MONEY YOU OWE ME, SOMEONE
   JUST TOLD ME
“YOU KNOW HE'S GONNA TRY AND HIDE!”
              I HEAR YOU QUIT THIS JOB,TOO, WELL THAT'S
    JUST LIKE YOU - THAT AIN'T NO BIG SURPRISE
AROUND THE HOUSE, DON'T CHA KNOW, YOU'D
    NEVER LIFT A FINGER.....  ....
YOU'RE LOOKIN' DIFFERENT SOMEHOW
    OH NO, I SEE IT NOW!
YOU'RE LOOKIN' LIKE A COUNTRY SINGER!

YOU'RE LOOKIN' ROUGH, ROUGH ROUGH!
 YOU'RE LOOKIN' LIKE YOU'RE GONNA DIE.
I HEARD YA DON'T SHAVE AND YOU'RE SICK
THOUGHT I'D BETTER COME REAL QUICK
IN CASE YOU'RE GONE FOR GOOD THIS TIME!
     YOU'RE LOOKIN EIGHTY AT LEAST, BUT YA STILL
           GOT YOUR TEETH
ALL MONTH I'VE BEEN TRYING TO RING YA
   I HEAR YOU'RE DIFFERENT SOMEHOW, OH LORD,
           I SEE IT NOW!
YOU'RE LOOKIN' LIKE A COUNTRY SINGER!








AND WOULDN'T YA KNOW JUST AS I WAS GONNA GO
      I SAW THAT  FIRST WIFE OF MINE
SHE MARRIED MY PAROLE OFFICER, THEY HAD
     SOME KIDS...I HEAR THEY'RE DOING REAL REAL FINE

SHE SAID: “GOOD TO SEE YA, I WAS GONNA COME MEET            YA, I WAS GONNA DROP BY SOME TIME
          OR MAYBE IT'S BETTER IF I WROTE YOU A LETTER
           I WAS GONNA DROP YOU A LINE
THEN SHE STOPPED BY THE POST AND SHE STARED
           REAL CLOSE
            SHE SAID, “HOW HOW HOW HOW!
             YOU'RE LOOKING DIFFERENT SOMEHOW
              I SEE IT ALL NOW... ...!
               YOU'RE LOOKING LIKE A COUNTRY SINGER!"


(HOOK again:)  You're lookin rough rough rough
                     lookin like you're gonna die
      TAKE A LOOK AT YOURSELF YOU'VE BEEN
                     ON THE SHELF
       YOU KNOW YA MADE A BIG MISTAKE THIS TIME!
          HEARD YOU DON'T SHAVE AND YOU'RE SICK
            THOUGHT I'D COME REAL QUICK         
              CASE YOU'RE GONE FOR GOOD THIS TIME
                
         

            I HEARD FROM DOWN THE STREET, YOU GOT
               A NEW IDEA IN YA
           THEY SAY YOU'RE DIFFERENT SOMEHOW,
            OH, LORD,I CAN SEE IT NOW!
               YOU'RE LOOKIN' LIKE A COUNTRY SINGER



(C)2010-2019 BY WILLIE G. MILNE

Wednesday, March 13, 2019

A TEACHER IN THE VILLAGE





There's a teacher in the village,
He thinks he knows what all things mean,
From mud and flesh there is a spirit
That the meat-men cannot see.

KING OF OUR QUEEN





Young Adonis
Swept into the sea;
A favourable wind blowing
Set him on this shore.
Our whole village
Traveled out to see him...
We knew not then
What trouble he would bring
To mark our doors.

Once we saw his
Handsome face
By Venus adored
And when his smile
Caressed us beyond all
Time and place -

Once his visage
Was lost to us and missed
Aphrodite loved
And then disgraced -
Dissolved into the mist
And seen nevermore

His memory gave our daily
Bread some leaven;
And reminiscences
Of where She lay:
Memories of heaven.








(C)2012 by William G. Milne
      December 12

Monday, March 11, 2019

WAIT-A-BIT! MADNESS GROWS IN THE NIGHT




        THE SKY IS grey or closer to black. The
ceiling is about 100 feet above the snow. (Pilots' parlance). There has been no change for several
fortnights, the snow is several fathoms deep in the valleys... on the hilltops --- well, no one has been on a hilltop for 10 months.
      Madness grows in the night. And it has been
endless night now forever. I haven't even heard a caw of a crow or a raven for many weeks.
The dogs and wolves have stopped howling. They are huddling together under the snow.
Even the weasels are silent, and they are notoriously restless creatures.
      Hank has just passed through his second
month of winter, and he is settling into various disturbing habits. He mutters to himself when he writes. He keeps flipping through those nasty magazines of the preacher. And he scrabbles around scraping and digging his tunnel towards the East.
      None of what Hank's doing holds any interest for me. His scraping and scrabbling
sounds are annoying. Not to mention his urgent
panicked breathing at other times...
      I do the only logical thing. I open our round "moon-door", break through the six inches of ice with a pick-ax... and I crawl through the hole I have made in the ice. It's slippery as hell out of doors. I fall once then proceed to crawl across the Main Lane on my hands and knees.
     Then I open the door to Artie's Bar and Grill and I smell the smokey air.  I step inside.

Sunday, March 10, 2019

WHEN YOU'RE GONE

WHEN YOU'RE GONE



Your love no longer waits, his soul is free
As waves are breaking gently to the shore
The moon is full and feels like evermore
It shines within your mind forbidding sleep;

Those tears you hide you save for true love                        gone,
Despite the busyness you have from day to day,
Late these nights you often feel this way;
Or when you hear some long forgotten song.

He comes to mind, the one who loved you true
He brought you everything you need;
And even taught you sometimes how to see,
To work and keep your vision true.

Around you every morning there is bliss
So how forgotten can he ever be?
He holds your head each night now when you
           dream
Protects you til the morning with a kiss.

One day he'll greet you by and by,
He always said he'd be returning soon;
In songs you would go dancing on the moon,
And chase the stars away across the sky.
                   








(C)2000-2019 by William G. Milne

THE MYSTIC AND THE CHILD AT PLAY

(1)In all forms of mystical endeavour a one-pointed mind is essential. A one-pointed mind
means a focused mind.

(2) It is also necessary to find a sacred or blessed site on which to ground yourself.
You can have a spot cleansed by yourself,
and sanctified by the Lord of Hosts. The
site, the locus is important and getting grounded in this place is even more essential.
You must be grounded when you begin
your sitting.

Jesus said: "Among those born of women, from
Adam until John the Baptist, there is no one superior to John the Baptist that his eyes should not be lowered (before him).Yet I have said, whichever one of you comes to be a child will be acquainted with the kingdom and will become superior to John."

In all the activities of man, no one is more focused than a child at play. His concentration is not dualistic or divided. So we work towards the focus of a child at play.

This is what we want when we begin a mystical endeavour.

Friday, March 8, 2019

NO SEX FOR A YEAR, HUSBAND OFFERS TO PAY

I ran into this guy on a train. He'd been drinking and I had a bottle
of wine, so I listened to him. The worse the details of the story got, the funnier
I found it. I tried not to laugh, because I wanted to hear the end of the story.



His wife has sex with her stud each night in the master bedroom

Harry is in a different part of the house. A special cupboard with a rubber pillow on the floor. She refuses to have any kind of sex with her husband.
All he is permitted to do is jerk off in the dark at least tn feet away
From her… Or hump the rubber pillow on the floor, while imagining
His wife having sex upstairs in their master bedroom...
           He’s permitted to hump the pillow, that’s all. A video camera is running
All the time. Like a prisoner in jail naked in a brightly lighted room under close observation.

          The first time she saw Harry naked she said: “What do you think you’re going to do with that dirty, pathetic little thing.” That comment was fuel for
100 jerk-off sessions for Harry. On his knees, ready to present his erection
like a soldier presenting arms
         When she went out at night, she expected him to wait on his
Knees by the front door – naked with a hard-on no matter how long
She is gone visiting her huge donged doctor.
         She wears a tight white dress. Harry starts to pant and play
With himself when he sees her in it. She says: “Don’t look at my
Ass, look down instead: look at the floor.”

        She has refused him sex for over a year. He starts to offer
Her money to have sex with her.

Wednesday, March 6, 2019

EXHAUSTED MAN BLUES

THE END OF ALL AEONS IS HERE

    


      All the great questions end up with a journey to yourself.

    There is no beginning nor is there an ending... but there is an infinite place where you are, a timeless place where the eternal speaks deep within you.

     The final frontier is your Mind,
and you don't have to take a step to explore it.

     Learn your sitting and you can travel distances in the galaxy within.

     The difficulty is not grasping complexity. It takes genius to grasp simplicity.

     All the journeys are within in you, all your lovers, all you love is birthing here in the present dawn of each new day.

    The second coming of Christ is at hand. He is already here within you.

    The dawn of Maitreya, the new Buddha rises within. Deeper than oceans, more vast than space is the unexplored Country of your own soul.

    I am waiting here to greet you. When you see me, you will Know yourself.







(C)2019 by W.G. Milne

Tuesday, March 5, 2019

REALIZATION, FOUNDATION EXPERIENCE, SATORI, KENSHO, NIRVANA, SAMHADI, GNOSIS and other names for it




People have asked me about the realization experience, the enlightenment experience, foundation experience.

Many of you have read zen. The satori experience is essentially the same - as what I'm writing about. Kensho, satori, living in a state of samhadi. All the worlds great religions have the same path in different ways - hidden in some cases, revealed in other instances.

 And people, monks etc. will argue incessantly about the differences. I don't care much about the differences of the separate paths. I no longer have much time for intellectualizations.

Why is this experience essential? It brings certainty into your life. You no longer wonder about whether you must go left or must go right,
or must go or do anything at all.

        You are free to go your own way without guilt or doubt or second-guessing.

         You are aware that you know all there is to know, yet in a different sense you know 
nothing at all.

         You don't need to know all the names of God or argue about such things. In the most fundamental way, you have walked with God,
and wandered with Him in His miraculous creation.

         Ego no longer plagues you. You might be aware that you were the best at all possible endeavours... but nowhere and at no time were you ever better or more pure than  THIS!





(C)2019 by W.G. Milne

Wednesday, February 27, 2019

MOONSHINE SKETCHES OF A PICKLED TOWN


MOON-BLIND BITCHES OF A zappadat:

MOON-BLIND BITCHES OF A SICKLE TOWN
 _________________________________________                                                                                                                                                                                                                                              Chapter ONE           -   FLIES
         ________________________                             This is a cartoon ( pencil and ink drawing) by artist Ernie Taylor (North Bay, Ontario)…. whenever I wrote a strange story (which was basically all the time) Ernie loved to capture the `mad act`
           My first article for the Talk of the Town Press  was:"ROVING REPORTER DISCOVERS FLIES" This story drew Ernie`s attention immediately. A line like -  “Your Roving Reporter has ascertained that Flies do indeed exist outside the civilized areas.”                                                                           UNEDITED*************
         AND IF YOU WERE WONDERING WHAT I WAS doing with “moon-blind bitches of a sSickle Town” I was trying to make a rhyme. Rhyme with
what? With “Sunshine Sketches of a Little Town.”.
But that’s where the ressemblance ends  - I am working under far more savage and extreme conditions than Leacock ever saw..
      You don’t have to feel sorry for the animals
around here - because the animals WILL KILL
you - not just the polar bears and the menacing
100 pound weasels. But the wolves howling all around us… and trying to bite my ass when I have a shit!
Here, even the DOMESTICATED animals try to kill
you!
Just to set things staraight, THIS STORY IS
     CHAPTER ONE of
      TALES OF WAIT-A-BIT
"MOONSHINED BITCHES OF A  TOWN
     BOMBED-FLAT”
And by “bitches” I mean fools of both sexes,
talking like a pimp on any street corner…


               CHAPTER ONE
                 ___________


    Now I`ve moved farther north. Here in the CANADIAN Northwest Territories, you can`t  tie up your horse outside for longer than an hour in fly season… If you stay in a bar too long and your horse is tethered outside, one of two things can happen by the time your return.  (1) Your horse has gone mad and he won`t let you near him… every time you draw near he tries to bite you - and there`s no way you can ride him. In his own crazy, eyeball-rolling way the horse is dead serious about hating you… and he won`t change his opinion about you for years.(2) you`ll notice you can see his ribs now,when you never could before. That`s because the clouds of carnivorous insects have been eating his tenderbits - and now they`re thinking of burroughing thru his hide to start devouring his internal organs… 
         You can be sure his ass hole will mostly have been eaten out so it is almost beyond repair… this will not have a calming effect on your horse, and it is likely he will hate you for as long as he lives.     I leave my smokey burrough and and go outside to talk to the fool. I don`t like being outside at this time of day, but - after all, I`m the reason he`s up here, so it`s only fair that I talk to him….                                              …     I can see in his eyes that he`s  a long way from sober… He`s getting that “step n`a lurch” tourists get around here. It`s easy to spot…   ((Bertie`s walking past:  “Hey, Bertie remember that tourist we had a few years back?”       Bertie: “Sure do… Nice fella…. Didn`t say much tho… Funny the way he ran after that plane!”                                                                                          “Sure was,” Nice to talk to Bertie.Don`t see him much anymore… To tell the truth, I  thought he was dead.))))
I go real quick over the lane to talk to the man.   It`s obvious his horse is in distress…   “Distress” is putting it mildly.                                                                                            “Your best plan is to shoot him quickly and use his body for food.”                                                Fella whirls around on one heel and stares off at me as if I`M in the distance when I`m only ten feet away. Peers in my direction like he`s never seen a man before.                                                                                              He says,”WHAT?”  He`s looking off to the south trying to see the plane. The Plane`s been gone for hours. Won`t see a plane for weeks now, maybe months.                                                                    
       I SAY: “You`re going to need the food for survival in these parts. And nothing stands still here for long…” Just as I say this, a dog goes running past us down the street like ten children are throwing rocks at him. And they say God doesn`t have a sense of humour.     Well. nobody  says that up here. Up here everybody knows God has a sense of humour… Just… not a very pleasant sense of humour…     This  guy. He keeps staring at me like he has never seen a hat before, keeps trying to reach up under the screenings…. I swat his hand away and kick his leg a light one.                                                                        “WHAT?” he shouts at me again                                      Spose he`s been down to Artie`s Grill That`s the only place you can get liquor around here. And the man hasn`t had time to make his own.                                                                                  I say: “YOU`RE GOING TO HAVE TO SHOOT THAT HORSE!”                                                                                   “WHAT!” he shouts at me. He`s not asking questions now. Now he`s getting rude. And he`s standing there unarmed.. He`s sort of a big fella, but I was big when I first came up here, too..                                                                              I I SAY: “The horses can`t stay out long this time of year…Usually they just run up and down the street a few times and peel right back into the barn. Then we lock the barn door tight.”  He`s walking up close to me now.                                            “What do you mean this time of year?” he asks…                                   “I mean the summer!” It doesn`t last  long but it`s NASTY, LONG AS IT LASTS!”
                          “Looking for a man called WILCOX!”
                           “You mean HENRY Wilcox?” I ask.      “I MEAN ANY KIND OF FUCKIN` WILCOX AT ALL!”                    Ha! Ha!, Well, you came to the right place!  I`m Frank Wilcox. Henry was my uncle.”
                    “WAS?” WAS? Did you say, WAS your Uncle? YOU MEAN I JUST CAME 5,000 MILES TO SEE A DEAD MAN?`”
               Yeah, that`s right. But don` be blaming me about Henry. S`ǹot my fault he`s dead… you can`t just go runnin`off across the muskeg around here! It looks like a field, I know, but it`s got HOLES in it… Just watch the moose they don`t stay on top long…. Course you won`t see a moose this month…”                                                     Once again he made a grab for my hat….kicked him harder this time closer to the knee….This one `hurt-a-bit`.        In Jamaica they got a town called “Wait-a-bit?” but that`s a different story….   ……  ……  Sure as hell wish I was in Jamaica now…. It`s hotter here —- and you can`t get a beer to save your life… “DON`T GRAB AT MY HAT AGAIN!”                        i`m taller than this fool when I stand up straight, and you better believe I can choke the life out of him…. God knows, I`ve had enough practice! It`s just not smart to stand up straight around here - you make a better target…                                                              HE SAYS: “You kick me one more time, I`ll rip your nose off!! Right off your face… that`s if you have a nose!!! Under all that screen shit.     COME `ERE! I WANT TO GET A LOOK AT YOU”“
                 Artie`s laughing so hard he`s rolling in the dirt… 3 legged dog keeps sniffin at him…
                 “WHERE YOU FROM, ASSHOLE?”
                   “Maryland…”                  “”“YOU DON`T TOUCH MY HAT!  Takes too long to strap it on! Those screens are real important to me. I`ll tie em up when we get inside… Artie`s buying us a drink.”                                     Artie, get up! You look like you`re enjoying  what that dog`s doing to ya!!”…… a little too much.
            We go inside and I get Artie to unsnap the back of my hat where it tightens around the neck… I hang the hat from a hook in the ceiling…. don`t have to reach too high for the hook. Ceiling`s only 4 inches above the top of my head
when I`m crouching…. which I do these days pretty much all the time.                                                           You get used to walking in a crouch… ask anybody who“s been in the army for about 4 years where people are shootin at yer head.
            Now that I got my hat off and the tourist can see my face —- it`s too dark in Artie`s to see yer face…( I can write good english, but not always)
            It`s cool in Artie`s Bar because it`s dug in the ground…like every other fukin place around here….after the Joint Canadian-American cruise missile tests… and that dumb NUK   (I mean CAN-NUK -  I`m not being racist, not that anybody`d notice around here… nobody gives a fuck and I tell ya…after smoking your skin a foot from a wood stove 10 months a year… nobody can tell what colour your skin is  anyway… cause it`s too dark to see anywhere you can relax   enough to have a drink…..after all, there`s only Artie`s. 
             This guy`s name is Hank and he`s not a bad guy - he`s  going to have to learn some manners…. He just took the oil lamp off the bar and shone it in my face…. 
nearly blinded me: “Relax, just want to see what you look like…see if you`re half mad or if you`ve gone all the way.”    Artie laughs: “Oh, he`s gone all the way.. All the way and back!
All the way round the moon —— only the dogs up here understand him cause they sing together.”          “SHUT UP, ARTIE!”   It`s nice to see him - just not that nice.            ” So what were you trying to tell me about my horse?” the tourist asks me.
             I was saying…. YOU`RE GOING TO HAVE TO SHOOT THAT HORSE….Artie`ll lend you a rifle and sell you a bullet.
            Artie pours us all a double shot of moonshine mixed with water, berry juice and syrop from farther south, flown up from NORMAN WELLS..  “OK, listen to me now:             You`ll likely be spending the winter here, because people don`t like cruelty to animals in these parts, so no one is going to give you a ride south. Not that there are any rides south —- unless you can paddle 2000 miles up river….”Ha! Ha! Me and Artie laugh.                                                                                After all, you`ve just lost your transportation. You`d better shoot him fast before he runs off into a lake somewhere and stands up to his neck in water for days, like the deer do. 
Every once in a while you`ll see a deer duck his head under the water to get the flies off. He`ll stand there in the lake up to  his chin in water with his eyes closed and he won`t move.It`s hard to see em after a while - look just like a stump.
        No, your best plan is to shoot him quick before he gets in too deep and then you`ll never catch him. But first you`re going to have to dig some holes - at least four feet deep, so they`re below the frost line. And don`t you put more than 20 pounds of horsemeat in any one hole.
            “Good God, you`re kidding!” he shouts, scratching all the while, and insisting on scratching repeatedly in several unattractive places. After a while you see newcomers do a dance, hopping from one leg to another - rather like a young child who has shit himself
           “I only wish I was kidding,” I say to him, giving him a sympathetic nod and trying not to laugh. He`s noticed I have a big screened hat on my head - I look like a beekeeper, only crazier and more extreme,(Talking now when we first met)              “We got flies and biting insects up here that make bees look cuddly and friendly - sometimes they even look like they can keep your warm.”
         “Better have another drink…” I tell the poor man. I remember when the realization first hit me - and I`m not talking about any spiritula Awakening…The  spiritual awakening you have up here is that you`re fucked - I mean well and truly fucked.  Not fucked by a woman …not good fucked  (Yeah we still have women up here, if you know where to dig deep enough)
               “DIG deep enough?”  he looks at me ascance, as if I`ve offended womankind. He`s worried about this is he? The poor little fruit?  Jesus Christ! He`d better go somewhere else and flap his hands at the end of those limp wrists he has… (OOOOooo, I`m feeling the 200 proof, that`s good.  Nothing like drinking out of a tin cup to really taste the stuff! “
There`s class and there`s class and up here this is class…
Hey, Artie, fire a blast at Jerimiah ( I mean a blast of sound —- bullets are too expensive to waste…. and we really need em in the dead of winter…”
"When`s the dead of winter?"  the Tourist asks
"Shit! Was I speaking out loud?"
"Sure wuz," says Artie…. I stare at him like it`s the first time I`ve ever seen him.  I can`t remember ever hearing him talk."
               “OK, Mary`s Land - the LIKKER`S STARTING TO TAKE EFFECT —— that means hallucinations —— I like it when it happens - I think it`s an added attraction, but.l… it takes a little getting used to…. the rules is - DON`T SHOOT ANYTHING UNLESS IT MOVES REAL FAST!”
             “I don`t have a gun,” says Hank.
              “HEY, ARTIE, GET THE MAN A GUN. He`s gonna need a gun soon as he starts seeing things…Or needs to take a shit. We all start to laugh.   I lean over and say to Hank - the outhouses aren`t the safest places around here, either.  You really do have to take a gun when you have to go for a shit
               “Artie, you`ll have to show him how to shoot!”  Artie whips a twelve gauge shotgun out from under his smock and blows the horns clean off one of the mooseheads by the door.
              I didn`t think Artie could see that far - twelve feet! Har! Har!…. I just saw somethin skitter real fast acroos the bar… I blast it`s head off  quick like lightning with my no stock 
sawed-off single-shot boit action 303. I keep it as a convenience under my right arm….I` feel naked without it; hell, I can`t walk straight  without it.                                                   (I probably can`t even relax and take a shit without it resting there under my arm, but you don`t need to know that)  ”                                                                                       “None of that pistol in the pants bullshit we used to see on TV… when we had TV….before that Canadian flyboy blew  the jail and mayor`s office, the A&P and our Artic version of the Dixie Chicks right off the face of the map and incinerated 4 fifths of the town in .036th of a second.
      ” I MISS THOSE GIRLS….”wails Artie and goes outside crying to have a piss.
              “Fuck! Did that really happen?” Hank`s starting to scribble in a notebook….  ….. I watch him for a while.  I used to scribble in Notebooks, too - it`s nice to see some fool at work -  scribbling  like the idiot I used to be.                                                                                               ” Oh, it happened all right, and that` not all that happened…” After all the corrugated cement buildings turned to powder, the Beasts moved back in. The lowlands here were always the Wolverines` home.
            “By the way, how` you manage to have yourself dropped off  by a plane that lands here once every quarter year?
             WILCOX hired me as a reporter….  That stuns Arti and me into silence… it takes a long time for us to digest the absurdity of it all and the unbalanced strangely tilted technicolour beauty of living in a world ruled by the smiling Trickster God —-The Trickster had clearly has gotten us all by the cosmic/comic balls   ….                               “You were to be my replacement - but Henry`s dead… he ran off into the bush with a hard-on. God knows what he was chasing… they found his socks and his Walkman,that was all -The same song was playing over and over again…and we hope the song had nothing to do with his death.                       The booze was obviously finding a place in  Hank… On impulse he rubbed his hands over the wood stove until his hands were pitch black, then he smeared his hands over his face and the back of his neck and in the crack of his ass and he rubbed more of the soot on his balls….                                 “We`ve got women who will do that for you,” said Artie                
      It might have been something I said — I told him smoke is the only effective fly repellant in the area, especially when you mix the soot with skunk piss. But then there is always the chance a huge weasel will wait for you in your deep-dug- human-home (in the army it`s called a foxhole)….. and  mount you when you enter in the dark.                                                      “And you don`t always have to be covered in skunk piss,” Artie says.”If you`re lucky  you will have passed out drunk , before the animal has it`s way with you.”                   Artie knows.        It`s happened twice to Artie. The first time he was pass3ed out drunk, the second time, not so much
They tell me, if you happen to be sober at the time, the nightmares persist for many years.
           When the missile struck, we were fortunate. It was summer and the people leave any way they can. There were only forty-six of uys left in town. Now we have 16, but this is different. This was our busy season.
The rest of them ran away…. WE shouldn`t  be here now..  
 when that MAD FOOL CANNUCK with a bad finger twitch and good aim destroyed all the CEMENT BUILDINGS IN THE AREA not to mention a third of the population…  
The LOWLANDS ARE NO PLACE FOR THE DAY PEOPLE….     (Not:  Bring David G  into it l-wristed Hank)))   
             I never used to wear a watch in the south, but now I have a large timepiece with several timezones on it, just in case I get lost…I always make sure I wearing my enlarged and reinforced beekeepers screens on at least two hours before sunset.
" i`M NOT KIDDING, I tell him. We have creatures up here that can dig better than we can, and they can smell raw meat a 
mile off. That` why you have to chop up your horse into so many pieces. You have to assume the beasts will get at leasthalf of them, or more. “Beasts?” What do you mean beasts? What kind of beasts?” There was a definite quaver in his voice  now. This meant that he was beginning to catch on.
           “The white men call them, “wolverenes.” The indians
have  a different name for them - it`s a long gutteral series
of phrases they have developed over thousands of years of horrifying, terrible experiences that never end.”
       wELL, TRANSLATE WHAT YOU CAN…. PLEEASE!
        They call them the devil…. The Devil with smart
red eyes that hates us and eats all our food and makes
 us run in terror until we cry; the beasts that make us
hide in the rocks or clib to the tops of trees; the beast who
gives no peace, who goes for the balls when he fights;
The beasts who makes him run, the 2000 pound bear,
the beast with piss like a skunks, who tracks us when we
run, the beast who eats our young as he smiles at us,
the beast whose home this is….
             The beast with the ancient mind; the red-eyed beasts
with the the fast pointed nose, the beasts with long teeth who hates us… the beasts whose home this isd. The beast who
plays with our pain, th testicle eater. Devil who KNOWS OUR minds…..
destoys all homes…..
       When dusk comes I`m not going to have to tell him to dig a hole.


SICKLE TOWN
 _________________________________________                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                     -  Chapter One -  FLIES! FLIES!
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                            This is a caracature  ( pencil and ink drawing) by artist Ernie Taylor (North Bay, Ontario)…. whenever I wrote a strange story (which was basically all the time) Ernie loved to capture the `mad act`
           My first article for the Talk of the Town Press  was:"ROVING REPORTER DISCOVERS FLIES" This story drew Ernie`s attention immediately. A line like -  “Your Roving Reporter has ascertained that Flies do indeed exist outside the civilized areas.” *************
         AND IF YOU WERE WONDERING WHAT I WAS doing with “moon-blind bitches of a s Sickle Town” I was trying to make a rhyme. Rhyme with
what? With “Sunshine Sketches of a Little Town.”.
But that’s where the resemblance ends  - I am working under far more savage and extreme conditions than Leacock ever  wrote about.
      You don’t have to feel sorry for the animals
around here - because the animals WILL KILL
you - not just the polar bears and the menacing
100 pound weasels. But the wolves howling all around us…
         and trying to bite my ass when I have a shit!
Here, even the DOMESTICATED animals try to kill
you!
Just to set things staraight, THIS STORY IS
    

      CHAPTER ONE of
      TALES OF WAIT-A-BIT
"MOONSHINED BITCHES OF A  TOWN BOMBED-FLAT”
And by “bitches” I mean fools of both sexes,

               CHAPTER ONE
                 ___________
    Now I`ve moved farther north. Here in the CANADIAN Northwest Territories, you can`t  tie up your horse outside for longer than an hour in fly season… If you stay in a bar too long and your horse is tethered outside, one of two things can happen by the time your return.  (1) Your horse has gone mad and he won`t let you near him… every time you draw near he tries to bite you - and there`s no way you can ride him. In his own crazy, eyeball-rolling way the horse is dead serious about hating you… and he won`t change his opinion about you for years.(2) you`ll notice you can see his ribs now,when you never could before. That`s because the clouds of carnivorous insects have been eating his tenderbits - and now they`re thinking of burroughing thru his hide to start devouring his internal organs… 
         You can be sure his ass hole will mostly have been eaten out so it is almost beyond repair… this will not have a calming effect on your horse, and it is likely he will hate you for as long as he lives.     I leave my smokey burrough and and go outside to talk to the fool. I don`t like being outside at this time of day, but - after all, I`m the reason he`s up here, so it`s only fair that I talk to him….                                              …     I can see in his eyes that he`s  a long way from sober… He`s getting that “step n`a lurch” tourists get around here. It`s easy to spot…   ((Bertie`s walking past:  “Hey, Bertie remember that tourist we had a few years back?”       Bertie: “Sure do… Nice fella…. Didn`t say much tho… Funny the way he ran after that plane!”                                                                                          “Sure was,” Nice to talk to Bertie.Don`t see him much anymore… To tell the truth, I  thought he was dead.))))
I go real quick over the lane to talk to the man.   It`s obvious his horse is in distress…   “Distress” is putting it mildly.                                                                                            “Your best plan is to shoot him quickly and use his body for food.”                                                Fella whirls around on one heel and stares off at me as if I`M in the distance when I`m only ten feet away. Peers in my direction like he`s never seen a man before.                                                                                              He says,”WHAT?”  He`s looking off to the south trying to see the plane. The Plane`s been gone for hours. Won`t see a plane for weeks now, maybe months.                                                                    
       I SAY: “You`re going to need the food for survival in these parts. And nothing stands still here for long…” Just as I say this, a dog goes running past us down the street like ten children are throwing rocks at him. And they say God doesn`t have a sense of humour.     Well. nobody  says that up here. Up here everybody knows God has a sense of humour… Just… not a very pleasant sense of humour…     This  guy. He keeps staring at me like he has never seen a hat before, keeps trying to reach up under the screenings…. I swat his hand away and kick his leg a light one.                                                                        “WHAT?” he shouts at me again                                      Spose he`s been down to Artie`s Grill That`s the only place you can get liquor around here. And the man hasn`t had time to make his own.                                                                                  I say: “YOU`RE GOING TO HAVE TO SHOOT THAT HORSE!”                                                                                   “WHAT!” he shouts at me. He`s not asking questions now. Now he`s getting rude. And he`s standing there unarmed.. He`s sort of a big fella, but I was big when I first came up here, too..                                                                              I I SAY: “The horses can`t stay out long this time of year…Usually they just run up and down the street a few times and peel right back into the barn. Then we lock the barn door tight.”  He`s walking up close to me now.                                            “What do you mean this time of year?” he asks…                                   “I mean the summer!” It doesn`t last  long but it`s NASTY, LONG AS IT LASTS!”
                          “Looking for a man called WILCOX!”
                           “You mean HENRY Wilcox?” I ask.      “I MEAN ANY KIND OF FUCKIN` WILCOX AT ALL!”                    Ha! Ha!, Well, you came to the right place!  I`m Frank Wilcox. Henry was my uncle.”
                    “WAS?” WAS? Did you say, WAS your Uncle? YOU MEAN I JUST CAME 5,000 MILES TO SEE A DEAD MAN?`”
               Yeah, that`s right. But don` be blaming me about Henry. S`ǹot my fault he`s dead… you can`t just go runnin`off across the muskeg around here! It looks like a field, I know, but it`s got HOLES in it… Just watch the moose they don`t stay on top long…. Course you won`t see a moose this month…”                                                     Once again he made a grab for my hat….kicked him harder this time closer to the knee….This one `hurt-a-bit`.        In Jamaica they got a town called “Wait-a-bit?” but that`s a different story….   ……  ……  Sure as hell wish I was in Jamaica now…. It`s hotter here —- and you can`t get a beer to save your life… “DON`T GRAB AT MY HAT AGAIN!”                        i`m taller than this fool when I stand up straight, and you better believe I can choke the life out of him…. God knows, I`ve had enough practice! It`s just not smart to stand up straight around here - you make a better target…                                                              HE SAYS: “You kick me one more time, I`ll rip your nose off!! Right off your face… that`s if you have a nose!!! Under all that screen shit.     COME `ERE! I WANT TO GET A LOOK AT YOU”“
                 Artie`s laughing so hard he`s rolling in the dirt… 3 legged dog keeps sniffin at him…
                 “WHERE YOU FROM, ASSHOLE?”
                   “Maryland…”                  “”“YOU DON`T TOUCH MY HAT!  Takes too long to strap it on! Those screens are real important to me. I`ll tie em up when we get inside… Artie`s buying us a drink.”                                     Artie, get up! You look like you`re enjoying  what that dog`s doing to ya!!”…… a little too much.
            We go inside and I get Artie to unsnap the back of my hat where it tightens around the neck… I hang the hat from a hook in the ceiling…. don`t have to reach too high for the hook. Ceiling`s only 4 inches above the top of my head
when I`m crouching…. which I do these days pretty much all the time.                                                           You get used to walking in a crouch… ask anybody who“s been in the army for about 4 years where people are shootin at yer head.
            Now that I got my hat off and the tourist can see my face —- it`s too dark in Artie`s to see yer face…( I can write good english, but not always)
            It`s cool in Artie`s Bar because it`s dug in the ground…like every other fukin place around here….after the Joint Canadian-American cruise missile tests… and that dumb NUK   (I mean CAN-NUK -  I`m not being racist, not that anybody`d notice around here… nobody gives a fuck and I tell ya…after smoking your skin a foot from a wood stove 10 months a year… nobody can tell what colour your skin is  anyway… cause it`s too dark to see anywhere you can relax   enough to have a drink…..after all, there`s only Artie`s. 
             This guy`s name is Hank and he`s not a bad guy - he`s  going to have to learn some manners…. He just took the oil lamp off the bar and shone it in my face…. 
nearly blinded me: “Relax, just want to see what you look like…see if you`re half mad or if you`ve gone all the way.”    Artie laughs: “Oh, he`s gone all the way.. All the way and back!
All the way round the moon —— only the dogs up here understand him cause they sing together.”          “SHUT UP, ARTIE!”   It`s nice to see him - just not that nice.            ” So what were you trying to tell me about my horse?” the tourist asks me.
             I was saying…. YOU`RE GOING TO HAVE TO SHOOT THAT HORSE….Artie`ll lend you a rifle and sell you a bullet.
            Artie pours us all a double shot of moonshine mixed with water, berry juice and syrop from farther south, flown up from NORMAN WELLS..  “OK, listen to me now:             You`ll likely be spending the winter here, because people don`t like cruelty to animals in these parts, so no one is going to give you a ride south. Not that there are any rides south —- unless you can paddle 2000 miles up river….”Ha! Ha! Me and Artie laugh.                                                                                After all, you`ve just lost your transportation. You`d better shoot him fast before he runs off into a lake somewhere and stands up to his neck in water for days, like the deer do. 
Every once in a while you`ll see a deer duck his head under the water to get the flies off. He`ll stand there in the lake up to  his chin in water with his eyes closed and he won`t move.It`s hard to see em after a while - look just like a stump.
        No, your best plan is to shoot him quick before he gets in too deep and then you`ll never catch him. But first you`re going to have to dig some holes - at least four feet deep, so they`re below the frost line. And don`t you put more than 20 pounds of horsemeat in any one hole.
            “Good God, you`re kidding!” he shouts, scratching all the while, and insisting on scratching repeatedly in several unattractive places. After a while you see newcomers do a dance, hopping from one leg to another - rather like a young child who has shit himself
           “I only wish I was kidding,” I say to him, giving him a sympathetic nod and trying not to laugh. He`s noticed I have a big screened hat on my head - I look like a beekeeper, only crazier and more extreme,(Talking now when we first met)              “We got flies and biting insects up here that make bees look cuddly and friendly - sometimes they even look like they can keep your warm.”
         “Better have another drink…” I tell the poor man. I remember when the realization first hit me - and I`m not talking about any spiritula Awakening…The  spiritual awakening you have up here is that you`re fucked - I mean well and truly fucked.  Not fucked by a woman …not good fucked  (Yeah we still have women up here, if you know where to dig deep enough)
               “DIG deep enough?”  he looks at me ascance, as if I`ve offended womankind. He`s worried about this is he? The poor little fruit?  Jesus Christ! He`d better go somewhere else and flap his hands at the end of those limp wrists he has… (OOOOooo, I`m feeling the 200 proof, that`s good.  Nothing like drinking out of a tin cup to really taste the stuff! “
There`s class and there`s class and up here this is class…
Hey, Artie, fire a blast at Jerimiah ( I mean a blast of sound —- bullets are too expensive to waste…. and we really need em in the dead of winter…”
"When`s the dead of winter?"  the Tourist asks
"Shit! Was I speaking out loud?"
"Sure wuz," says Artie…. I stare at him like it`s the first time I`ve ever seen him.  I can`t remember ever hearing him talk."
               “OK, Mary`s Land - the LIKKER`S STARTING TO TAKE EFFECT —— that means hallucinations —— I like it when it happens - I think it`s an added attraction, but.l… it takes a little getting used to…. the rules is - DON`T SHOOT ANYTHING UNLESS IT MOVES REAL FAST!”
             “I don`t have a gun,” says Hank.
              “HEY, ARTIE, GET THE MAN A GUN. He`s gonna need a gun soon as he starts seeing things…Or needs to take a shit. We all start to laugh.   I lean over and say to Hank - the outhouses aren`t the safest places around here, either.  You really do have to take a gun when you have to go for a shit
               “Artie, you`ll have to show him how to shoot!”  Artie whips a twelve gauge shotgun out from under his smock and blows the horns clean off one of the mooseheads by the door.
              I didn`t think Artie could see that far - twelve feet! Har! Har!…. I just saw somethin skitter real fast acroos the bar… I blast it`s head off  quick like lightning with my no stock 
sawed-off single-shot boit action 303. I keep it as a convenience under my right arm….I` feel naked without it; hell, I can`t walk straight  without it.                                                   (I probably can`t even relax and take a shit without it resting there under my arm, but you don`t need to know that)  ”                                                                                       “None of that pistol in the pants bullshit we used to see on TV… when we had TV….before that Canadian flyboy blew  the jail and mayor`s office, the A&P and our Artic version of the Dixie Chicks right off the face of the map and incinerated 4 fifths of the town in .036th of a second.
      ” I MISS THOSE GIRLS….”wails Artie and goes outside crying to have a piss.
             “Fuck! Did that really happen?” Hank`s starting to scribble in a notebook….  ….. I watch him for a while.  I used to scribble in Notebooks, too - it`s nice to see some fool at work -  scribbling  like the idiot I used to be.                                                                                               ” Oh, it he CEMENT BUILDINGS IN THE AREA not to mention a third of the population…  
The LOWLANDS ARE NO PLACE FOR THE DAY PEOPLE….     (Not:  Bring David G  into it l-wristed Hank)))   
             I never used to wear a watch in the south, but now I have a large timepiece with several timezones on it, just in case I get lost…I always make sure I wearing my enlarged and reinforced beekeepers screens on at least two hours before sunset.
" i`M NOT KIDDING, I tell him. We have creatures up here that can dig better than we can, and they can smell raw meat a 
mile off. That` why you have to chop up your horse into so many pieces. You have to assume the beasts will get at leasthalf of them, or more. “Beasts?” What do you mean beasts? What kind of beasts?” There was a definite quaver in his voice  now. This meant that he was beginning to catch on.
           “The white men call them, “wolverenes.” The indians
have  a different name for them - it`s a long gutteral series
of phrases they have developed over thousands of years of horrifying, terrible experiences that never end.”
       wELL, TRANSLATE WHAT YOU CAN…. PLEEASE!
        They call them the devil…. The Devil with smart
red eyes that hates us and eats all our food and makes
us run in terror until we cry; the beasts that make us
hide in the rocks or clib to the tops of trees; the beast who
gives no peace, who goes for the balls when he fights;
The beasts who makes him run, the 2000 pound bear,
the beast with piss like a skunks, who tracks us when we
run, the beast who eats our young as he smiles at us,
the beast whose home this is….
             The beast with the ancient mind; the red-eyed beasts
with the the fast pointed nose, the beasts with long teeth who hates us… the beasts whose home this isd. The beast who
plays with our pain, th testicle eater. Devil who KNOWS OUR minds…..
destoys all homes…..
      When dusk comes I`m not going to have to tell him to dig a hole.

Friday, February 22, 2019

THE BRIDAL CHAMBER AND THE CHRISM, AND SITTING IN THE POWER OF MIND


A few notes re: THE CHRISM - The Bridal Chamber is a mirrored room. And this is where the Chrism takes place.
When Grace enters a room, the room brightens up. 
Illumination is another word for enlightenment, 
Lighted candles in a mirrored room = fire. 
The Holy Spirit has it's own light and fire. 
You cannot enter the Bridal Chamber without prior purification. 
The Chrism is baptism by fire and light...
Whoever is far from Christ is far from the fire. 

The Bridal Chamber is a stage of the spiritual development of an individual, Solitary, you enter the Bridal Chamber... having been purified first.... Then you enter into a meditation, a sitting until a mirror like effect comes about.And you do not see yourself reflected back - you see the One Who Is Creating us, through Christ, staring back into your own eyes..........................It is a mystery how this takes place. At this stage of spiritual blessedness and growth, everything is mysterious. You have your own Mind to guide you.
Walker

The Bridal Chamber is said to be a mirrored room for this reason. The next stage will be the Chrism, where you are baptized with fire and light and the fire passes right through you. In order to create your own Illumination.

      If we can assume that Christ, the Anointed one, that He is One with God, the Lord of Hosts, the Voice over the waters, the Mind that rides the clouds, the Lord of the Meeting Rivers, Lord of the red earth and the islands of the seas.. that Christ is the son, and God his Father.. and that the Son of man is within us... once we taste the Mind of Christ, we taste the eternal Mind, the Mind that sees beyond birth and death... once we Know this Mind exists, we arrange our sittings so that we travel to this Mind and become One with it.