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Thursday, December 26, 2013

AN ATTACK OF GOUT, A SLAP OF MANIA, AND A BOTTLE OF OVERPROOF RUM - THE EDITOR IS DRUNK AND THE RUDEBOYS COME OUT TO PLAY!


                      

                          I want to apologize for my outburst
of insulting talk directed towards various people
and also the reader. I want to apologize
especially to the reader.
           By the way, I've found it and gotten rid of the worst
of it. But it's frustrating. You get ride of one piece
of nastiness, and five  more paragraphs pop out. Yes,
I got rid of one ugly paragraph, only to
find five more take its place, from articles I don't
remember writing...  Kind of like gardening triffids.
You pull out one weed, and bingo!  The ugliness
has spread!
           I must have been in a horrible pre-Christmas
funk. I don't respond well to all the pressures of
Christmas. Why do you think I'm a hermit? I
don't respond well to pressure from any source.
My life has been full or horrendous, diabolical
pressures: 1st from my parents who wanted me to be
a politician; 2nd from girlfiends who EXPECTED
things from me... and 3rd, from the ugly
dark tunnels I lived in with various wives!  Only
when I left each situation did I realize how
miserable I had been!
         Now I live, not pressure free, but close to it.
That's why I have time to write, finally!

         Now briefly I live with a mess of cats. A friend
pressured me into taking the cat. Then I tried to
give the cat back - and that worked for about
a year... But, now the cat has come back to
me pregnant, and last week had seven kittens;
and they're all living in my kitchen....
          Anyway, you don't want to hear
about the smell and stuff like that. But
let me tell you this: if I can smell it must
be bad!
          In the past I have taken various
medications up my nose, and maybe
took a tad too much of certain medications.
The result of the whole thing is I don't
have much of a sense of smell...
well, you can imagine the rest.
          I'm not going to let the cat situation
develop into another form of pressure...
I'm getting pretty slick.  Pressure slips
off my back.... Ha! Ha! At least so far
today!

          The whole thing about writing
and about life is to work things
until you get into a flow experience.
Whether it's the flow of words, or the flow
of lovemaking, or the flow of a healthy
sport - running, cycling, and tennis -
the idea is to work it until you get into
the ZONE.
          The Zone is a flow experience,
and, as I say, this is the aim.

          Now that combination of Wray and
Nephew overproof, full strength,  white
rum from Jamaica (you can light a lantern with it!);
gout in the knee - the pain of gout in the
knee can drive you mad; and a good
solid does of  biorhythms moving into mania...
well, I had a flow experience, all right.
           The agony of gout in the knee;
the clean-headed drunkenness of the
overproof, and the high-paced
metabolism of mania. Rather than shouting
out the pain, I was writing it out into a
stream of intensity that no moral arbiter 
in the mind, and no mental editor could cope
with...
            Looking back on it, it was an
interesting experience, but no way
do I want to go back into that
wild state of mind.
           What I will do is go over
the sixty or so pages I typed up
instead of screaming or swinging
from a chandelier.... and see how
much of it has been published...
That's the plan.   
           And it may take some time.    
                    
          But let me say, I don't think anybody is stupid
to read my stuff when it is unedited. Sorry about
that.  Truth is, some of my best stuff comes out unedited.
That's when I'd read if I wanted to learn about writing
           Frankly, it's smart to read the unedited pages,
if you can stand the incoherence.  I was throwing pages 
out around the room - like a maniac.
You should see this place!
           
                    My theory is you edit nothing at first.
Then hopefully go over it, with a blue pencil, and THEN
publish it. (I know they don't use a blue pencil
anymore.) Or at the very least -DON'T PUBLISH
IT  THE SAME NIGHT YOU ARE DRINKING,
maybe getting loaded and starting to
turn ugly.
         
           It's taken a lot of years to learn how 
to write the way I wanted to - as I speak, myself -
and other people speak.  It's best to learn
hanging out with hookers, drug dealers and the
strong arm boys.
           Most street corners, you'll find them.
           The trick is to not get stabbed, robbed,
or have unprotected sex. If you're going
to have street sex, do it in such a way
that you don't catch anything terminal.
             I guess you could argue that death
is a flow experience, but it's not
what we're looking for right now.
 
           I want to write the way people talk - minus 
a few expletives.  Sometimes, of course,
you have to leave all the four letter swear
words in - if you're in the middle of the action,
or writing an intense argument. In other words,
there are times when you can't much out at
all.
              What's his name?-Keruoac  had a theory
that he wanted to bring it all out unedited, and it's
claimed he more or less did. I don't believe that.
But maybe he came close.
               Some other writers: Jean Genet came close also
in, Our Lady Of The Flowers...who else? Henry Miller, at times.
 Salinger .The guy who did, "Monkey House", Vonnegut,  
sounds like he's doing it, He's not, his stuff is well crafted, but
he sounds like he's talking straight to the reader.
                   Hemingway, great with the straight
narrative - telling what's happening etc: not so good
with the dialogue.  But you can argue that
point. I don't know why I brought him up.
His work is edited many times.
                   Celine, also, very much so in "A Long Day's
Journey Into Night" , that brilliant book! He sounds like
he's having a relaxed conversation with the
reader.  Seeming like you're talking right to the read
and being unedited - the two things are related
but they're different issues.
                    Both Ginsberg and William S. Burroughs
visited Celine in France in the mid 50s...
he was one  the fathers of writing
with slang and clipped street rhythms -
in order to achieve  the flow.   
                  Stephen King and Elmore Leonard
both very street-sounding dialogue, and you gotta
love them for it. Elmore Leonard's novel-talk
makes you feel like you're in the same
room with him, having a relaxing drink.
                 
                         

                Anyway,   the disgusting images
and the ugly/nasty narrative
the unnecessary rudeness
that was the flow that was natural
to the pained, ugly mood I was in...
But I should have edited it
later. 
                  Plenty of women have left me
for this very thing. I come on like a schoolboy,
then a month goes by... and I step into my
natural mania, drink some Seagram's Rye,
and then soon afterwards, have gout in the
knee and...
                 Then I tend to shout...and wave a
cane around...One time  I drove  down a
fairly busy highway - driver's door was open
and I was swinging an axe at other cars, who
were coming too close to my knee.
  And that was just gout in the
knee ... with no other added fuels!

          To be honest, if I wanted to be a writer -
I'd see if I  could get a glimpse of unedited
manuscripts at the library... when you
see a page of the first manuscripts, you'll
see how badly even excellent writers
start out... then watch their improvement
when you see the actual book        
         
        I'm normal now and clearheaded, coming
out of  depression or mania can be like
coming out of a tunnel.
       But it was worth exploring - the stream
of rude nasty ugliness - it's still a flow
experience.
          Anyway, sorry for the excessive
rudeness. I'll read the articles over and
get rid of the worst of it. 

 

               

                              

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